As 2018 is about to end, I want to do a year-end gratitude post and make a list of all the things which made me the person I am today.
This year I have learned to say NO to people. This word is very powerful, it helps you to be yourself and to be selfish at times. All these years I used to worry more about others, what they may think, what if they feel bad, but now it is not about them, it is about me more. I cannot please everyone and compromise myself. In this whole process of saying No and standing up for myself, I have lost quite a few relationships and gained some more valuable ones. I also attained some closures with these. I am not sure these closures are a permanent one or temporary🤔 but I am glad I can say that at least I have achieved something * 😊.
This year I am very much thankful to my family and friends. To my family when I was in India and to my friends here. Without them, nothing would have been possible this year. They kept me grounded whenever I needed. They were with me and dealt with my nonsense. Not even once they questioned me back asking why?. Thank you for everything you all did and please continue to do in future😉.
This year I am thankful to my daughter, She taught me more than anything can ever teach me, to live in the present, to be happy, to adjust to the situations, to be grateful to the little things around. This year she gave her first dance performance on stage, I almost cried seeing her perform. She also graduated from her Kindergarten this may, it was a proud moment for us to see her in the graduation gown. In India too she was enrolled in a school and not even once she threw a tantrum saying that she did not want to go to school, she was very flexible and adjusted to the situations. During this short span of schooling she won two prizes, Isn’t it a wow moment☺️? She was surprised too. She told me one day that she never thought she would win that first prize as she felt very nervous on that day. But when people started praising her and said that she was amazing, she felt very happy. She also learned about gratitude this year. Her daily gratitudes have become her daily routine for most of the year.
Due to some unavoidable circumstances and issues, my daughter could not move to first grade here. This was something which hit me hard and I could not handle it. I tried many methods to overcome this but some things do not change. It happened all of a sudden and did not give me a chance to breathe. There were so many questions unanswered especially when my girl asks me why she is doing kindergarten again? I don’t have an answer. This incident has taught me to expect the unexpected. Life is unpredictable at times and we should face it. There are things which are beyond our control and we can’t do anything about it. But as they say, everything happens for a reason maybe this also has some reason and life has to move on and I am moving one step at a time.
I kept a low profile during the second half of the year, I was just recovering from the school issues and it took most of my time. I kept my self busy with the kids story-sessions and photography. I am thankful to the wonderful moms I met here during story-sessions. They are so cooperative and always ready to help me whenever I needed. Thanks for the yummy treats they send every-week for snacks. Did I tell you guys that I was among the top five finalists in the photography category for the Orange Flower Awards conducted by Women’s web? It was a eureka moment for me. Though I did not make it, I am so proud of myself. There is still a lot more to learn as I am just a beginner but this year-end achievement is surely a boost for me.
Now that this year has ended, I want to end all those negativities which came along with it. I just want more peace in the next year. More peace, a lot of memories and a little happiness is all I need. Wish You all a Wonderful Year Ahead.